I feel like I have a permanent food baby just hanging out in my stomach. Doing this move helps me stretch out the food baby in my belly.
I’m telling you. Heidi and I would be best friends.
I feel like my thighs are getting bigger.
I don’t like what I see in the mirror so I avoid it at all cost. I wish I knew why I am having this sudden negativity towards myself. However, unlike the past, I am not restricting at all. I still eat and I am eating more. I just started reading The New Rules of Weight Lifting for Women and I do love it. I find all the information very interesting and helpful. I’m only on page 45 though, but still. I cheated by looking through the book. It made me very nervous about not getting a period. Then it is making me question how much I eat. Is it enough? Even more despite my permanent food baby? It’s making me uncomfortable. Then, of course, I notice other blogger’s WIAW and I’m like, “Jeez, I guess I’m not eating oatmeal three times a day for every meal so I must be fat.”
The New Rules of Weight Lifting for Women simply makes me question my lifestyle as well as nutrition. I love it though. You should definitely expect a solid review once I finish it. I started talking to my mom about it on the phone, but she’s like, “Just way until I get back home.” I haven’t talked to anyone today since I’m home alone. I talked to my pets. That’s about it. I’m nuts. My mom is going to get home and I am going to yap my head off.
I won’t mention how much money I have spent on groceries though. Seriously. I have been to several grocery stores in a two days time. A girl has to eat!
Anyway, wasn’t I talking about books?
Another book I need to start reading is Kara’s!
Why yes, that is her autograph. When I met her a few months ago, her book sold out so I couldn’t get her autograph. I put my name on a list though, which ensured me a copy when the bookstore got more in and then Kara actually came back to sign them. Holla.
Originally, I wasn’t going to get her book. It seemed like a mediocre running book. I’ll give it a try though.
So, let’s review.
I have spent money on food…
My dinner tonight
Cheese+pepper quesadilla with roasted veggies in pesto and kale
…more money spent on fruit….
and of course books.
How could I forget my other recent purchase?
They are the same as my other Adidas; just a different color. Why change what’s working? Besides, I got them for cheap. I love a deal.
And I love free cupcakes from work.
Free cupcakes that go in a semi empty peanut butter jar with cottage cheese.
As you can tell, I am trying to be positive and upbeat. Being by myself with no one to talk to is not helping. Nevertheless, having Pandora comedy on full blast in my house just to fill the silence helps. Don’t get me wrong, I love silence. I don’t run with music for that reason. I can handle being alone, but after a few hours, I need to talk. I need to tell someone that my car still smells badly probably because I ate a burrito two days ago and that my sweaty sports bra is making me cold. I would not do well as a silent monk.
Questions:
– How do you get out of a ‘funk’?
– What are some awesome purchases you have made recently?
Learn to run when feeling the pain: then push harder.
William Sigei
lift to run 
Do you like the Lifting for Women book?I’ve been looking into it — would you recoomend it?
I definitely would; especially if you want to lift heavy.
I used to get the worst food babies when I was undereating because my stomach would fill up with gas because it was always so empty, and it would make me feel like I was full despite the fact that I was starving. The most ironic thing is that when I started to eat MORE, the food babies went away.
I feel like I am eating so much though. I eat when I’m hungry. I’m not starving myself so I don’t know.
I get a food baby all the time!! I actually named it hahaha
I named mine too!!! Hahaha 🙂
this is a brilliant idea!!
First of all…you’re not fat at all…you look great and remember, you did very well in that half marathon! 🙂
I understand what you mean though, by the food baby. When I had to gain weight after ED #1 I felt pregnant all the time! Haha. Your body will get used to it soon.
I completely understand what you are saying here. If you have been reading my blog for the past few days, I written about the funk I am in as well….and how the resulting emotion is that I feel “fat” aka food baby 24/7. Just try to find what is really bothering you and remember it has nothing to do with your body. I believe there are underlying issues with eating disorders and finding the source of those is the key to recovery. It’s so uncomfortable feeling this way all of the time…so let’s both agree to work through this mmkay?! I am tired of feeling like a bloated cow too
I have been in a funk lately too. When I gained weight for swimming-I felt crazy. I was going off the deep end. I felt like the biggest person in the world…the whole nine yards. Then my boyfriend at the time was like Hollie. Honestly, I can’t even tell you have gained weight. You look awesome. It really made an impact on me I think.
I totally get the “bloated belly” but it often happens when you are actually under eating. I so understand feeling like you’re eating, eating, and eating some more but it’s still probably not enough. Focus on calorie dense options like nut butters, dried fruit, trail mixes/nuts, ice cream…etc. I know how hard it can be, trust me!! And yes, your period is REALLY important. Mine is STILL not here, so I’m going to the doctor’s ASAP and figuring that out. The new rules of weight lifting really made me think, too. No shame in re-evaluating your fitness routine. It’s good to do that every once in a while 🙂
I love reading blogs – but it’s really really hard not to compare your workouts / diet / life with other people’s… which is ridiculous. You just ran a half marathon (in record time mind you) and had lots of other long runs leading up to it. There’s no way your nutritional needs are the same as someone who’s running 4-5 miles a day at a slow pace. Just focus on you and not on people who live on oatmeal. Life’s too short not to eat great food!
I definitely understand how you feel. NROLFW definitely made me think a lot about how I’m fueling myself, how I workout, etc. but as far as nutrition goes I think it had a positive impact. It makes me want to get my period back because I want to be able to run forever, not stop because I’m too weak and get a stupid stress fracture. I don’t think i’ve ever felt this positive about gaining weight, but I think it will be a positive change for me even if it’s hard. I eat when I’m hungry, but it’s obviously not working, so i enlisted outside help.
dude i feel ya..i have been in a funk too especially now with an injury and i have been feeling like i have put on weight..which i know is necessary and i look great and people tell me that…but the other day my brother was like yeah you put on pounds..and just hearing that made me freak. like whattt?
its tough. i just keep reminding myself that its all about how i look and not a number. i do not own a scale and i refuse to step on one when i get home to my parents house cause i just know the result will be not happy me.
it sucks and i wish i could offer you advice but honestly just know that you are not alone. ya know funks come and go but in the end i rather be healthy and happy
ps how dod you like that better than pb stuff?
I like it and I don’t eat it just for the calories. I mix it with other peanut butter or in smoothies.
Permanent food baby= story of my life! Constant food shopping is another story of my life. I always feel like I eat too much as well, hmph.
I really want TNROLFW but I can’t find It ANYWHERE
Cupcake in a pb jar is a seriously genius idea- I have to do that!
I just purchased a new road bike( my bank account is saying ouch)! I LOVE it though.
Hope you begin to feel more confident in your body and eating habits( who cares what others eat) soon!
Xxx
Look for it on Amazon.
Awww. You will get out of this funk! They always pass I promise! I have been lifting to try to get big muscles like popeye. So far it’s not going well.
I just recently purchased and iPhone and I LOVE IT. 🙂
Jealous.
I can relate to the permanent food baby feeling 😛 But mostly it’s just in my head. 😐 Actually, eating regularly usually helps me. Even if I think I’m not hungry…sometimes I realize I actually am…but then again making sure I’m not over-eating also helps, because sometimes when I eat more and more I am satisfied with less and less. :S
I get food babies all the time. I already eat a fairly good amount, but I would eat so much more if it didn’t make my stomach so uncomfortable!
When we are alone is when it is so easy to think about food, calories, looks, etc and feel bad about ourselves. Getting out there in the world, living life with people, is how you get out of that trap. And also, venting right here on your blog! Use it to get everything off your chest and you will feel better. I’m always here if you ever want to talk! ❤
Thanks. (:
I am really interested in the Lifting book… would you reccomend it?
I am sorry to hear you are in a funk.. its so hard to get out of some times… just remember, everyday may not be good, but there is always something good in every day ❤
I would definitely recommend it!
When I’m in a funk I determine what the cause is. Then I attack it from all angles. If I’m feeling lackluster or frumpy, I get in a good workout, cut back on refined foods, chug lots of water and get all dressed up with make up, hair and all. It works just about every time 😀