Scaredy Cat

3 Aug

Hey, hey! Happy August!

You know, lately I have been loving each and every one of you because of your incredible comments. You guys are da shiz. Yeah, I just said da + shiz because saying “the shit” isn’t cool anymore. According to me. I’m loving all the new readers too! Hiya.

I eat a giant piece of cornbread in your honor.

Anyway, I digress.

How come celebrities always look amazing while running?

Instead us normal people look like mental heath patients escaping

And they look good all the time. What’s up with that?

Normal people like me can’t even match my socks with shoes.

Black socks with blue shoes? Obviously I am a trend setter.

Whatever, whatever. I ain’t no celebrity got nothing on my cat Ralph and I.

Keep Ralph in your thoughts or prayers. (I’m not religious so I hate saying pray for someone.) He’s in the hospital right now. Apparently, he had a temperature of 105 and one degree more and he would have been dead. Not good. Poor Ralphie. I just want his ugly little face back home.

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So, today I had a day off from work. Holla! It was my first day off in over a week. My body is all screwed up. I don’t get to bed until eleven every night since I don’t get home from work until 9:30 or even 10. Then, I wake up between 6:30-7 before I go to work at noon the next day. I’m glad I have a job, but it’s really not part-time. Anyway, I’ll stop complaining.

My whole point of saying I didn’t have to work today was to mention I had an appointment with an Air Force Recruiter where I made the decision to join the Air Force to study my ass off to pass the ASVAB test to actually be able to join. I am qualified to join and I believe I am a great candidate. I can still run, go to school, and all that jazz after my basic training and technical training is finished.

I don’t want to go to college. Period. I would only go to run. In all honesty, I don’t think college would challenge me or even take me out of my comfort zone. It won’t help me gain the confidence I need to move on with life. The Air Force (for basic training) will take me to Texas. That is out of my comfort zone. That is out of the hell hole of Portland where hippies roam the land with mustaches and neck tattoos that say “put a bird on it”.

I’m excited. I want to do it despite how nervous I am. I am so nervous I won’t even make their cross-country team.

There is a catch. After I take the ASVAB text and if I pass it (knock on wood), there is a waiting period before I immediately go into basic training. It’s like 4-6 months. In between time, I don’t know what I’ll do besides work. I was thinking of joining a running team though.

It is all so nerve wrecking. What if I’m not good enough? Strong enough? Fast enough to make the team? Smart enough? What if I don’t make the team?

Screw it. If all else fails, the army isn’t so picky so I’ll just go there. Or be a firefighter. Some how, some way I hope to be content with what I do. 

I feel like a five year old saying this, but I’m scared.

Come on, ASVAB For Dummies, don’t let me down.

I need to pass this. I need to make something of myself. Would you guys like a review?

Just kiddin’.

“We all have dreams. In order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline and effort.”Jesse Owens

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18 Responses to “Scaredy Cat”

  1. GraceLynneFleming August 3, 2011 at 8:52 PM #

    Just discovered your blog – you cracked me up

    thanks for sharing 🙂

    -grace

    http://herumbrella.com

  2. Britannie August 3, 2011 at 10:13 PM #

    Good luck with the test!

  3. Ma Ma Megan August 3, 2011 at 10:25 PM #

    I think being scared is totally natural, but I think you know what you want and I’m super happy you are going after it.

    Sorry about your kitty hopefully everything is okay :O

    I am the queen on mis-matched socks, I don’t think my mother taught me how to match clothes when I was younger. 😛

  4. katshealthcorner August 3, 2011 at 10:44 PM #

    105?! Oh my gosh. I am so sorry about Ralph! I hope he gets better soon! He is such a cutie.

  5. Isabelle@cheesymiteapples August 3, 2011 at 11:25 PM #

    Will be thinking about Ralph!
    Your human its only natural too be scared. Wishing you the best of luck 🙂

    I’m so happy to hear your going after what you want!

  6. Christie August 4, 2011 at 3:22 AM #

    First off – maybe most of us ‘normal’ people don’t look good all the time but YOU do! JEEEzzz. 🙂 Can I please have you legs too? Thanks. haha I think making spontaneous decisions while your young and living your life is what life is about. College is NOT for everyone – Most the people I know go to college, graduate, and still have NO idea what they want to do with their lives. I say go for it and JOIN.

  7. allieksmith August 4, 2011 at 3:34 AM #

    Ralph is a cutie haha

    I know you can pass the test .. You went to private school-kids who go to private school are great students 🙂

  8. Tessa @ Amazing Asset August 4, 2011 at 4:31 AM #

    Wow you are so honest in this post, thank you for sharing your feelings with school and the air force! I know you can past that test and when you do, you will do fantastically in Texas. I know this girl. Can’t wait to hear about your progress with this

  9. Alexandra August 4, 2011 at 4:48 AM #

    Poor Mr. Ralph 😦 Hope his hot kitty self will be back to normal soon!
    And that’s such flipping amazing news about the air force!! I think it’ll be a much better fit for ya, and if you come to Texas you can be my neighbor in this psychotic heat! Yay!! 😀

  10. Hollie @ Lolzthatswim(andRun) August 4, 2011 at 5:00 AM #

    Girl you are a bright and intelligent woman and will get through this test. You will beast on the test like you beast on your running. You should join the navy and come to school in VA…because my dad runs parts of it. Then we could run (well I could run behind you) together and it would be the best time ever. But really-you are going to do great with that test and I really think the Air Force is something you’ll fully enjoy.

  11. AntosDoesLife August 4, 2011 at 6:27 AM #

    You are so much stronger and braver than I even will be. I don’t think I could ever just decide not to go to college and to do something that challenges me more mentally and physically. I have a lot of respect for you. What you are doing is not easy, and it’s not what everyone else does. So don’t be scared, if it’s meant to be, all will work out. 🙂

  12. Tara August 4, 2011 at 7:08 AM #

    You. are. da. shiz. Because I agree, that’s how all the cool people say it. You need to do what is going to be best for you, even if it’s scary. You don’t want to live your life wishing you took another path. You have to go with your gut feeling, because it’s usually telling you the right thing. You’re going to be fine as far as running because you’re freaking amazing. You’re also going to ace that test. You’re an inspiration!

    keeping Ralphie in my thoughts — he’s to adorable not to!

  13. Sweet Cheeks August 4, 2011 at 9:46 AM #

    I love that running picture of you! Your legs are TONED. 🙂

    I’m so happy that you are following your heart and doing what you want to do, instead of thinking “i have to go to college” I think you sound like a perfect match for the Air Forces. good things are up ahead of you!!

  14. Amanda @ Running with Spoons August 4, 2011 at 11:48 AM #

    Girl you have nothing to be scared of because you’re the freakin’ bomb dot com. I love how passionate you are about this, and if it’s what you want, then I have no doubt that you’ll get it.

  15. hippierunner August 4, 2011 at 1:09 PM #

    You can do it!

    I hope Ralphie is okay. He’s so adorable!!

  16. Brittany August 4, 2011 at 2:21 PM #

    OMG I want your cat…FINGERS crossed he will pull through. Your leg muscles are freaking bomb girlfraan. Good luck on the test, you’ll do finnnee!

  17. runningperspective August 4, 2011 at 9:19 PM #

    awwww your cat!!!! i am so sorry!
    and GIRL i am SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!! you figured out what would be best for you and just GOING FOR IT! your amazingggg

  18. Rach @ This Italian Family August 5, 2011 at 5:43 AM #

    Oh girl, you will rock that test! You’re right, you’re great Air Force material! 🙂

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