My Story Minus an Ending

I was raised with no food rule or guidelines. I didn’t have to clear my plate to have dessert. Cookies alongside my breakfast cereal was normal and fast food was considered a healthy meal if large fries weren’t ordered. Poptarts, pizza, and fudge brownie were my food pyramid. However, I was an extremely active child. I played softball, volleyball, basketball, tennis, and I dabbled in track all throughout middle school. I was young with a fast metabolism so having Cheetos stained fingers constantly wasn’t a problem.

I was chubby though, and my mother had no problem letting me know. On and off in middle school I dieted. I ‘dieted’ before. My first diet was in fourth grade and I lost ten pounds. My diets in middle school were a joke. I lived off Starbucks, gave up fast food, and starved myself. Eventually, that faded and I entered high school.

My first year of high school was miserable. I moved to attend a prestige all girl Catholic school where I had zero friends. Again, I was on and off of ‘dieting’ and not eating lunch. I would come home starving and eat fast food immediately after school then eat dinner plus dessert. Vegetables and fruits never touch my plate. I was unhealthy at 5’3 and a size seven, bordering a size nine. I was not playing sports either because I was so unconfident and convinced that I couldn’t make the team. What a huge mistake that was because I loved sports and competition.

Sophomore year of high school was worse and I was depressed. I had a family member commit suicide, I thought of suicide several times, I still wasn’t active, and mother was always letting me slyly know that I was not skinny. I was not happy. I found a few friends and we would eat 7-11 nachos during lunch with slushies and a bag of chips. Something had to change. My mom put me into a kickboxing class, which I actually loved. I was only attending the class two or three times a week, but it was something. At the end of sophomore year, my mother and I did a six-week kickboxing boot camp that was five days a week. The boot camp focused on cardio and strength training as well as HEALTHY eating. Something clicked in me. I began eating better. I still was not eating vegetables or fruit, but I was eating low fat, low calorie foods that were high in protein. I gave up most fast food, candy, and sweets. I loved the boot camp so much I did another six-weeks. By the end of the summer, I lost probably twenty pounds. I was down a pants size and a little bit happier with myself.

Junior year rolled around and I did another six weeks of the boot camp. I began to pack my lunches, which were just a protein bar and possibly a Naked drink. I continued with the boot camp until December. My mother wouldn’t pay for it any more (it was $300) so I took up running. Running clicked with me just as much as the kickboxing class. I dropped to a size five. I was confident so I joined the track team where I ran the 800, 1500, and 3000.

Middle of junior year

Junior year ended and I was determined to run cross-country senior year. I vowed to make varsity because they were going to San Diego for a meet, thus I ran continuously throughout summer. Something else clicked though: my eating habits. I was eating fairly well with the occasional trip to Taco Bell and oatmeal cookie. I began to eat vegetables and fruit then I gave up all meat, sweets, chips, soda, juice, and much more. I dropped to a size three then a size one in no time since I stopped eating lunch on top of it. I measured everything and counted every calorie even if I was just eating one blueberry. I was running an hour a day in addition to XC practice. 115 lbs became 110 lbs then 105 lbs. When school started, I was 96 lbs and everyone asked if I was okay. I was pulled out of class on the second day of school to the counseling office. They were concerned about weight. My mom was called and she thought nothing of it since I was excelling in cross-country (I made varsity) and I ate three plates full of food at dinner. That night my mom weight me at 84lbs. My weight was now an issue.

At NW Regional’s, too thin obviously

I had to eat more and stop starving myself if I wanted to continue cross-country. I began to eat increasingly more, but it was only healthy food. I gained weight so I could to go to San Diego. Throughout cross-country season, I ate more and more, staying around 101 lbs. I made it to state, regional’s, and qualified for a Nike XC meet. Somehow, I got back down to 97 lbs around Thanksgiving. My mother found out and I increased my intake once again. It wasn’t that I was starving myself, but i was eating too healthy and my metabolism was exceptionally high. I was fed up though. I began enjoying foods. I found out I love food. A lot.

Currently, I am in the United States Marine Corps at the age 21.

*I am open to any advice, tips, etc. on running, food issues, weight lifting, or whatever. I am also here for anyone who needs help or has any questions.

16 Responses to “My Story Minus an Ending”

  1. In Australia mate April 4, 2011 at 4:36 AM #

    Very inspiring, I wish you the best of luck on your sporting path and lifestyle changes!

    You can be quite a positive role model for many other youthes out in the world

  2. Allie April 5, 2011 at 5:04 AM #

    Awesome life story.. Minus the ending 😉 can’t wait to read more of your blog!!!

  3. eva626 April 5, 2011 at 6:51 PM #

    how do you eat healthy…im having problems with this…my family keeps junk food in the house all the time…any advice?

    • lifttorun April 5, 2011 at 7:00 PM #

      I just turned my family into healthy eaters, for the most part. We still have some ‘junk’ food in the house for my brother and dad, but really I got my family to realize that healthy eating means a better life.

  4. tea-bag April 26, 2011 at 4:17 PM #

    i totally understand how getting healthy can spiral out of control when you try to start controlling it & also, how hard it is to just live day to day and try to maintain that steady weight gain/maintenance. it’s like there’s a voice saying to restrict or control and another saying to let go. congrats on being so open & i’m lovin’ your eats!

  5. Laura @ LauraLikesDesign April 29, 2011 at 3:22 AM #

    This was really encouraging–I’m excited to stay up to date. Keep it up! 😀

  6. Ashley May 18, 2011 at 11:29 PM #

    I know where you have been and I think its awesome how honest you were by telling your story!! I know how tough it can be! You are such a pretty girl and I wish you the best of luck on everything!

  7. logginnbloggin May 22, 2011 at 1:05 PM #

    I’ve never fully read your story until now, I knew the gist of it but I just read it all. Wow you are an incredible girl who has clearly been through more most people can say they’ve been through. You are an amazing girl and clearly have the right mindset to become even greater than you already are!!

    Ps. Your hair is gorgeous and I want it!!

  8. Jessica Rose June 13, 2011 at 10:56 AM #

    I just found your blog and read your story – and I’m excited to read more as you go on to college!

    I’ll give you my encouraging perspective: When I ran XC/track in high school, the girls who consistently won races were always itty bitty skinny girls who struggled with eating disorders. But once I got to college, the winners of races were all strong & muscular and consumed a lot of (healthy) calories to be able to withstand the extra mileage college required of collegiate runners. I think it helps to be surrounded by healthy, successful people so I wish you the best at PSU 🙂

  9. Scarlett June 19, 2011 at 5:00 PM #

    It makes me happy to hear that you’ve made so much progress against what could easily have become an eating disorder. Keep fighting and keep your amazing attitude–I wish I’d been as rational and strong as you when I was your age!

  10. katshealthcorner July 17, 2011 at 9:14 PM #

    Girl, you are so strong. 🙂 I can’t believe how amazing you are! I am so glad that you have come so far! i can’t wiat to continue this journey for that balance with ourselves together. 🙂

  11. Ray August 14, 2011 at 2:50 PM #

    gaining is SO hard, but i definitely think blogging and exploring foods that you enjoy makes it so much easier to handle. i have faith that your story will have a VERY happy, successful, and healthy ending 🙂 you go girl!

  12. whatevertheroute September 4, 2011 at 2:07 PM #

    Just found your blog! I’m so proud of you for sharing all of this so openly and honestly with the blog world. I went through VERY similar things when I was in high school but never had the guts to put it on the internet. I give you sooo much credit! =) I’m excited to start reading from now on =) also, Oregon is one of my favorite states! =) so jealous you live there!
    -Christina ❤

  13. runservecook July 18, 2012 at 8:24 PM #

    WOW, that is an amzing rollercoaster of a journey you have been on!

    It is very inspiring how open you are about this to everyone ! I could never do that..I have some trouble with the gaining weight too:/

    Keep up the good work though you are looking good(;

    I will continue to read your great blog:)

  14. Lindsey August 14, 2012 at 6:50 PM #

    Hey there!! I just found your blog and I really love it! Props on everything and I’m excited to be following your blog now to see whats in store next:) I am Lindsey by the way!

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